Darkness

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Darkness scares me
Not because of the monsters under my bed
Or the ones that hide behind the Curtains;
Hanging by the window.

I am scared of what’s inside me;
My thoughts and the monsters my mind creates.
The ones that remind me of my failures,
The ones that tell me I am not good enough
The ones that shout inside my head in chorus
To choose death ’cause it is promising
Than to live something so similar to death.

I am scared I might let them in;
Let them in to control me.
Control me to an extent that
I might turn into one of them, a monster.